Interloping Eardrums

Current mood: chipper

Pssst... over here. Shhh. They're listening.

Seems like everywhere I go anymore I have to watch what I say or it will come back and bite me because people like to take comments out of context. I don't really understand the thrill in taking what someone says and making it sound like they said something awful when they didn't. It's a little irritating. Just.. a tad. I mean, come on, grow the hell up. Seriously.

Yesterday was the first day I have done nothing with my writing in awhile. My eyes were starting to bleed from staring at the screen so long. (Not literally.. well kinda.) I just needed a break. I'll pick it back up today, and work on it some more tomorrow too. Although I do have to write my paper for school still and it's due on monday. Fortunately, I don't usually have any problems writing my research papers. That's one nice benefit of being a writer, stringing together comments and research is much easier to do (I think) than it is for a lot of people. Although I never really asked, so I just might be wrong. hah.

I've been talking to my girlfriend a lot lately. Learning a lot and of course, falling more in love with her with every new thing I learn. She seems to be with me too, which is obviously making me very happy. I've been in this little row boat (see just about every post in february on my main blog) before, believing in a long distance relationship just to find out that the person was not telling me the truth when I was about to show up at the doorstep for the first time. The difference this time, however, is I have known her for years, I believe it's four or five, to be more descriptive, and one thing I know is she is not full of shit. Never once to me, ever, in all of the years I have known her has she lied to me, mislead me, or tried to decieve me. (nor anyone else that I know of.) Sometimes I wish she would have because some stuff in the past has been hurtful, but unfortunately, it was also the truth, which is probably why it hurt so bad.

I have made quite a few mistakes in my past and one thing that irritates me endlessly is people who refuse to let me admit the mistakes and see that I did do them. Like, say, those people who are like, "Oh it was not your fault," and then try to put all the blame on someone else. HELLO! I fucked up, I know it, shit, let me take the brunt of the blame and hold it on my shoulders. It's okay, I most definitely learn from my mistakes... which it seems a lot people can't say.