Todays

Current mood: calm

it's interesting how things change from day to day. The conversation with my friend was good and all is well now. We discussed many things and have become better friends because of it. On another note, another friend, an ex-from oh a bit ago, if you back track a bit in the archives you will find the one in which I speak of, confinded in me something I doubt she has told many people. I will not be so rude to blabber about it here either, but it was interesting. All of it is interesting, is it not? Things we do not know, think we know that are not true, the secrets we keep from each other. What's the point? I don't know. Then again, there are so many things I do not know, how can I ever be sure I actually know anything? Hmmm...

Have you ever met someone that you could tell was just plain evil? There soul was drained of the very substance of what actual love is, and they do whatever they can to destroy any bit of happiness around them because that is all they know? Me niether... but I have a very strong inclination that I will be in the next few years. Tis a bit bothersome, but I have heard stories of such a person, perhaps I should say being because I have a hard time grasping that something like that is completely human. A shroud of darkness following them around like some poisonous cloud, and here... I am told by some of my most trusted friends that trying to resist is pointless because it cannot be done. At least, no one has ever done it. But... as the saying goes... there is a first time for evertyhing. We'll see what happens. Silly dreams, and such things of the mind.

I've begun looking for a new job again. The one I got that I was so excited about has turned out to not be giving me a whole lot of hours, which means I can't even pay my bills, which obviously is putting me in a bit of a jam, which is not good. Not good is bad, which none of us want, right? Well okay then, you get the situation. Let alone my class is actually hard this time, so I have to focus on that and try to get my head on straight.

There could be worse things going on though. I will just stay thankful for what I do have, happy with what I am going for, and smile because I do have friends and loved ones who are there for me. Prayers prepared, the road ahead will not be easy, but alas... it must be done... again.